Radical honesty.  That’s where I had to begin. 

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In 2011, I found myself juggling a 2-year-old, a newborn, I was 4 stone overweight, and had a drink problem.

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I thought my desire for wine would disappear when I had my first child in 2009; I thought the huge void I felt would be filled by motherhood.

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Unhealthy relationships, money problems, and another baby later (2011), my drink problem was worse than ever.

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I wasn’t drinking at 8am and I’d usually manage at least 1 day a week alcohol free.  Was I addicted to alcohol?  I absolutely was.   Did anyone know?  Absolutely not.

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I longed to quit drinking but every time I tried, I found another reason to start again: birthdays, a special night out, and stress and anxiety.

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That first drink ALWAYS made me feel better.

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I’d quit smoking with Allen Carr’s “Easy way” method in 2007 and by May 2012 I’d quit alcohol too.  My mind became clear, and I started to educate myself, learned many new skills, and started a business. 

 

But, I was still unhappy.  I was taking anti-depressants and attending relationship counselling.  I was desperately trying to keep my family together.